Hey Fatty Fam,
This past week was filled with extreme intensity, dedication, and commitment and I am both exhilarated and exhausted! For the past 8 days straight (out of 60….eeek) I have been waking up at the ripe hour of 5am (it’s not a pretty site) to work my tuchus off with a group of motivated pillars of strength all working towards fulfilling our deepest desire for health and happiness. I feel incredibly fortunate to have such a supportive and like-minded team by my side but I must confess my emotions are on overdrive. As I work towards kicking my own @ss and continually tearing down old ingrained feelings of insufficiency, I have found myself on an emotional roller coaster. My highs are incredible and invigorating and make me feel on top of the world. My lows however, find there way into my mental orbit and invade my thoughts, reminding me of just how long of a journey I am on. As I exercise, and breath and perspire, I am releasing years of pent-up emotions and frustrations. I have had to dig extra deep to relax into my thoughts and learn to be comfortable with their release. So many thoughts exist for decades inside of our complex psyche and perhaps it is the ultimate sign of bravery to release them from confinement. As I travel down this road I am constantly battling my own judgements and I desperately want to make peace with my inner-self, non-contingent upon my outer manifestation. I have done dozens of prolonged fitness programs in the past but this time it feels much different and much more personal. When I created this blog, I declared to the universe and myself that “the time is now.” I proclaimed that this time I was going to overcome my largest struggle and I was going to do it for myself and for every person out there who has walked in my shoes. This call to action was louder than any inner voice I have ever heard and in that moment of declaration, the universe indeed started supplying me with the tools for my success. I am insanely grateful for this opportunity and I am going to fight for the next 52 days as if my life depended on it, because in actuality my life does depend on it. I am proud of my commitment and I am excited for the positive rewards this dedication will provide, but I would love to ask you all a small favor. If you could, send me just a touch of strength and positivity, I promise to return them to you ten fold. Help me through this challenging time by being the wonderful support-system you always prove to be and I know that with you all by my side there is not a signal goal that I cannot accomplish or a single fear that I cannot overcome.
I love you all very much and thank you for your support. Please know that when I feel like taking it easy on myself, I think of all of you and push 100x harder!
Thank you for being my motivation and guiding force and for being a part of the Fatty on a Diet family!